Monday, April 27, 2009
the worst day of my life
ah why i feel so hurt.i am being backstabbed by my best friend.he was the one that i used to trust not too long ago but now everything change....
why?heaven is so unfair i love soeone and that person also love me but why cant we be together.the truth is finally out it was actually the backs where my friend behind stealing her away from me .now thats the time i told myself why am i so trusting to friends?what are friends for ,nobody can really be mine best friend anymore.i felt so hurt as if my heart was being plunged in by two knifes why my best friend need to do this to me.i just cant figure out.
why is loving someone so diffcult ,i wan her i really wan to keep her to myself.but i am indeed very selfish but who doesnt want to keep the love ones to their own.people do make mistake i know but this mistake is really unbearable i cant talk myself to accept it.maybe i will be numb to my foes feelings towards mine best friend ...
love is complicated i know but as for me to me the define of love represents the token of trust between each other ,you maybe have hurt someone but because you love him too much you will try to keep him instead of letting him go.what is she thinking i really dont understand i gave the needs to heal her heart but what did i get in the end is nothing but all the hurting and injuries.
anyway i have nothing to say about the best friend of mine ,what he wan to do is his own problem i wont give any danm care to it anymore ! lets just hope that i will slowly forget her ......
Labels: betrayed of true love
Friday, April 3, 2009
failure of my life
i am going for takewondon competition.tomorrow is the day,i have been waiting this day!Aiya,die haven prepare and think what kind of kicks or tatic i can use it on my opponent?is my opponent going to be fierce,strong or expert?dont care,dont think just do your best to beat your opponent down .this was what i thought,it may not be real....
woke up early in the morning.not exactly very early around 9am ?my brother really is a lazy bum,i woke up already he still in bed.hai....nothing i can do with him.finally i manage to wake him up,kicked and slapped his butt until he cried.later,we prepared and check everything make sure that we bring along our essential stuff for competition.set off,ran towards the destination.about 10 mintues we reached,everyone was waiting for us .seeing that we are the only "late comers"they turned their backs around and looked at us .i was clever ,shouted "eh why all looking around at us,go do your warm up".the leader lead us through out the whole warm up excercises.
less than a minute,the bus arrived.we boarded and proceed on with our destination.i was singing songs all along in the bus?the trip was about 45mintues.arrived and walked in to mayflower primary school with abit of pride,walked up the stairs.by that time,i saw lots of people getting warmed up and doing basic kicks.i was getting really scared ,thinking that i will get a silver instead of gold?
finally,after long waiting of bout fighting .its my turn,went down and have mine warm up.my coach taught me lots of different combination of kicks...like double turning kicks ,double turning plus slamming kick.its my turn ,my name is called out.i finished my last set of warm up kicking and went up to register for my name list.report and settle down with my opponent bout no 103.at first ,my opponent sat beside me wanted to talk to me i repiled and smiled politely to him ...i was really hot and stuffy plus i need to put on mouth guard wow thats really disgusting hate it man....
its my turn,we started the match.my mind was blank untilthe refree said start in japanese and i stuned and went in straight using turning kicks and slammingkick all the way.ha...guess what i got 7points and there my opponent also got 7 points dann it .he was like mad bull giving me two high turning kicks on my face that gave him a score of12 and thats goes the end of me...ko!wow...his kick was soild.
post more on the feelings of my lost next time.....
Labels: an experience learning
